Attitude

oh well..wat can i sae. kalo dah degil, degil jugaak..even the teachers admitted tat she's turning from bad to worse. she's at the losing end rite now. she misused the trust given by everyone around her and dissapoint every single one of us. dont come running back to us when u haf no one my dear..cos u kno we're sick and tired of ur attitude. the problem lies within urself and not the people around u. u chose this path. so dont blame everyone else if u realised tat u've made the wrong decision. As a friend, we were trying to help. but wat did we get in return? ur ugly attitude. is tis ur way of showing appreciation? i dunno. speak for urself. i dont give a damn abt u anymore.

she's cunning

very, very cunning

dont be fooled by her.

i've learnt my lesson

and tats all i haf to say

=)

werk!

received a call at 12:26pm from cheers

informing me that i've got the job.

wee~

haf to report to werk on sat at 10am.

hope everything goes well..

=)

bbygurls love!

initially wanted to accompany kak era for her interview earlier tis morn

but then i made up my mind to apply for the job

hehs

next, fetched kak siti at her crib..and off we go to marina!

@ 12:30 had lunch at mac

@ 2:00 camwhored! (our hobby) one out of many things we haf in common. =)

@ 2:50 went to catch a movie!

@ 5:30 movie ended

@ 6:00 reached macpherson and sent kak siti back home

@ 6:45 home sweet home =)

everything went smoothly eventhough it was not planned..

i loooove both my darliings to bits!

they're a part of me...

and as far as i'm concerned, they're honest and trustworthy..

i appreciate every single thing tat they haf done for me.

every small talk and every small gesture.

L.O.V.E~

my years as a sec sch student

Saw Mr Erwin yesterday..
Brings back memories of my sec sch years..
years of being bullied, years of enduring hurt, years of being a loner.
those were wat I felt for the first 3 years..
But as time passes by, we grow into a much mature individual..
learning to treasure watever we haf..
My time as a sec 4 and 5 student were much better..we reallie bonded and get along well.
This was also maybe for the fact tat I don't bear grudges towards them.
During tis period of time was when I met tis particular person who has changed me to become a much better person.
The fact is, there's a whole lot more to talk about.
Wateva it is,
I don't regret or blame anyone for wateva I faced cos these are the things tat made me who I am today.
I learn and understand alot more now.
=)

All Bottled Up.

I've made up my mind tat i'm not gonna treat her the way I used to.

It's the best way to avoid conflicts and misunderstandings..

The biggest mistake I have made so far is trusting her.

cos as far as i kno,

Her mentality is still that of a young child.

This must have something to do with her childhood past time.

But she should kno tat she can't let tat possibly bring her down.

Her over-sensitivity is making me pissed off.

and I'm not the only one tat has been saying tat or feeling tat way.

Try telling her tat and u'll see wat u'll get in return..

I can't do anything abt it so i'll just let my frustrations off here.

and pretend everything's fine when I see her.

the cure to a broken heart

I still feel as though there's something missing in my lyfe

can't seem to figure out wateva it is..

wondering if there's a cure to it

frequent mood swings are the result to this..

wat do they call this anyway? disaster? catastrophe? hahaha..

kays...enuf of craps sarah..

the fact is..

every single day i try to not let my mood swings get the best out of me.

maybe tat's the reason why i'm feeling tis way.

I try to be the best for everyone around me but it's clear enuf tat i'm not being appreciated by some.

Is tis retribution?

I don't kno..but let's just hope for the best

@ MMLC =)

At MMLC with Nuriyyah and Cai Zhu rite now cos apparently I found out there's no SW lesson todae..
Precious time wasted..
='(
Gonna start on my project real soon
trying my best not to get distracted easily..
so tats all for now!
tata!

she

She has a choice but prefer a 'dont know, dont care' attitude, she has a future ahead of her and the present to care abt but prefers her past, she who can have possibly everything she wants but rather mourn over watever she lacks. she's the girl who is so full of herself and blocks herself from the real world. wake up lil girl. you can haf the whole world to urself if u reallie want to..

hurt~

i haf this huge hole in my heart..
i feel so hurt.but wat can i say..i've said enuf..i've let everything out..
i'm doing it for her own good
but why can't she just realise tat?
doesn't she kno why ppl are avoiding her?
i won't tell her cos as a frd, i respect her..
i just wanna let her kno how i feel but gosh when will she ever learn?
yes i kno, kwn bukan satu..
but i treasure every friendship but only those who deserve it..
and as far as im concerned, she's more than a frd..she's like a sister
but when will she ever gonna accept my opinion?
only god knows..
everyone haf been telling me tat i'm doing the rite thing
hope tat's true..
just hope i won't regret tis..

and this is how the plan goes~

not going to sch tomoro..
due to some reasons..(for me to kno and for u to find out obviously)
meeting dearest kak era and kak siti for lunch and
then off we go to causeway point..
so tats the plan for now..
lets see how things go tomoro..=)

hidden truth

cried myself to sleep for the past 2 nights..

dont know...

how much longer to pretend everythings okayy..

how much longer to keep everything to myself..

how much longer to hide all those tears..

how much longer to smile for the sake of others...

Trust

"The toughest thing about the power of trust is that it's very difficult to build and very easy to destroy."

This is exactly the reason why I trust myself much more than how much I  trust those around me. 

This may be hurtful but face the fact, the truth hurts, ppl.

picnic!

had an awesome dayy out with bbygurls yest. everyy outing with them were great..from raya to movies to hort park to snow city and to picnic.eachh and every outing were amazing and the gurls never fail to make my day.love them!

...

i'm back!
mkn kat KFC ngan ila..then jln2 satu ep mcm pompan2 tak btol..
turun, naek the whole tyme..
haha..
mon nk klua lagiiiiik..gi sengkang then carik aerobics class fo SBC -.-'''
mcm tkder class laenn..hehe
hope it wont be as bad as i think it would be.
k lahh nk relaxxx nowwwwww..
byeee~~~~~

lapaaaarr...

meeting ila afterwards..
nak gi makannn..
tp skarg kene tunggu dier mandi (tak tau brape lame)
dahh petang lom mandii lagik..no shame!
hahaha
eh laapaaaaaaaaaaaarr perrrr....
kat sebelah pulaak ader pompan cine ngah marah anak dier..
memekaks!
k bye!

trying

just found out sth..
breaks my heart knowing it
and i simplyy donno why i feel tis way.

it just hurts knowing that i dont mean a thing to tat particular person..
i dunno why i let myself land in this kinda situation
i can't put my thoughts to words
i'm sooo confused

sch!!

sch reopens todae

but i'm still in my 'holiday mood'

haha..

slept at 12 yest..and i feel lyke a zombie now

haf to constantly remind myself to pay more attention during lessons and don't be distracted easily

bleh ke tak pon tak tauu..hees~

gonna siap noww

chiow!

:)

at mak's!!

having fun with dear cuzzies rite now
woo!
love them to bits!
tp part yg tk best is when Ali accidentally kicked me
goshhh
my jaw hurts badly and i bit my tongue
:'(
but the touching part was when the cute lil kid apologised
awwhs~
tauu pon takot kene marahh...hmph..
skarg ni i wanna tdo..besok sahur nak mkn nasi minyak.
wee~
nites!

goshhhh

Just came back home...

Accompanied Ila to buy some stuffs at bugis..then head to city hall, geylang, changi airport and east point

Damn tiredd..

Now I'm gonna fetch my sis from tuition and buke ngan dier at p.ris

Blehh pengsan slalu camni

hees~

To my beloved sister....

Found this from a website..
Very meaningful...

The girl I call sister 

is someone who is there

The girl I call sister

Is someone who always cares

The girl I call sister

Can make me smile

when times are blue

The girl I call sister

Is someone very true

The girl I call sister

By choice, is my Best of Friend

The girl I call sister

Will be there till the end

The girl I call sister

Is the blessing from God above

The girl I call sister

Is the sister that I'll always LOVE~

~ Haidah Nur Hannah & Sarah Arina ~

Thanks :)

Finally, I'm over it!
hahahahaha
I'm a much happier person now
:)
Soo glad everything's over..
Don't haf to carry a whole load of burden anymore
My life is waaaayy better now
For those who were there for me during my difficult times and being a great listener,
Thank you, ILY!!
=D

memoriesss

Woke up this morn with a very, very terrible stomach cramp

Had to bear with the pain for abt an hour.gosh..

Cobaan org berpuase..haha

Aniwaes, Found some old picts taken with my 'ex-bestie' (if there's even a term for it)

We're not in contact anymore now..

All bcos of a little misunderstanding between me, her and another good frd of mine, S.

Initially, she wrote a post on her fb acct abt a guy who keeps on asking bout her whereabouts

Later on, a guy wrote tis on her wall: 'Where do u stay? hahaha'

Thinking tat the guy was her frd and wanted to make joke out of it, i 'like' the post

Without even asking for an explanation, she cursed me.

I was like..wtf?!

How was I to kno tat he was 'the' guy?

I decided to ignore her.

About a week later,

'S' called me and asked if i knew a guy named 'Phan' cos he added her on MSN. The freaking guy told her that I gave her email addie.

Again, my reaction was, wtf?! I don't even kno tat guy personally

He's just a random frd on MSN. Even so, I alwaes tied my best to avoid hym..

But after thinking bout it, I think I knew how he'd get her addie..

He may haf looked through my MSN profile and saw 'S's profile and added her

If this is his way to get back at me, he's soo wrong

Bodoh pe jantan.

The following day, my 'ex-bestie' chatted with me on MSN..

She cursed me the whole tyme..

She claimed that S quarreled with her guy bcos of this..

-.-'''

What's the point of the 'delete' button anw?

just delete hym lahh..tsk3

I don't even bother to waste my tyme marah2 dier...

cos bende ni sume mcm merepek sgt2

in fact she made me laugh the whole tyme-not bcos of wat she saed but bcos of the effort she took for such a lil thing tat does not even involve her at all..

and also for the fact tat they trust a guy they knew for a few daes rather than a frd they knew for a few years...

Thanks for helping me realize who's true to me and who's not

I truly appreciate it

=D

hahahaha..

:(

Hatred, anger and disappointments...

dunno how i'm suppose to feel and react rite now actuallie

i kno running away from problems is not the best solution

but in this kind of situation, i think it's best to leave everything as it is for now

and try my best to divert my attention on something else

For what I kno, i have nothing to lose..

I have great friends, met amazing ppl and a supportive family

I wouldn't want a single person to ruin everything i own so being selfish is not an option rite now..

haix...

IMY..

new begginings~

There must and alwaes be a new start for everything..

It dosen't matter how old you are or how wise u can be...

The fact is, nobody can run away from it

As for me, though i went through a lot myself, there's still much more to learn

Regrets. I have a few..but there's nothing i can do abt it..

I have to accept everything and learn to understand that everything happens for a reason

As we all know, life is a learning journey and we have to take everything in stride..

All we have to do is to think positive and move on..

What I can say is,

Everyday is a new start so try to make the best out of it.
:)