werk!

received a call at 12:26pm from cheers

informing me that i've got the job.

wee~

haf to report to werk on sat at 10am.

hope everything goes well..

=)

bbygurls love!

initially wanted to accompany kak era for her interview earlier tis morn

but then i made up my mind to apply for the job

hehs

next, fetched kak siti at her crib..and off we go to marina!

@ 12:30 had lunch at mac

@ 2:00 camwhored! (our hobby) one out of many things we haf in common. =)

@ 2:50 went to catch a movie!

@ 5:30 movie ended

@ 6:00 reached macpherson and sent kak siti back home

@ 6:45 home sweet home =)

everything went smoothly eventhough it was not planned..

i loooove both my darliings to bits!

they're a part of me...

and as far as i'm concerned, they're honest and trustworthy..

i appreciate every single thing tat they haf done for me.

every small talk and every small gesture.

L.O.V.E~

my years as a sec sch student

Saw Mr Erwin yesterday..
Brings back memories of my sec sch years..
years of being bullied, years of enduring hurt, years of being a loner.
those were wat I felt for the first 3 years..
But as time passes by, we grow into a much mature individual..
learning to treasure watever we haf..
My time as a sec 4 and 5 student were much better..we reallie bonded and get along well.
This was also maybe for the fact tat I don't bear grudges towards them.
During tis period of time was when I met tis particular person who has changed me to become a much better person.
The fact is, there's a whole lot more to talk about.
Wateva it is,
I don't regret or blame anyone for wateva I faced cos these are the things tat made me who I am today.
I learn and understand alot more now.
=)

All Bottled Up.

I've made up my mind tat i'm not gonna treat her the way I used to.

It's the best way to avoid conflicts and misunderstandings..

The biggest mistake I have made so far is trusting her.

cos as far as i kno,

Her mentality is still that of a young child.

This must have something to do with her childhood past time.

But she should kno tat she can't let tat possibly bring her down.

Her over-sensitivity is making me pissed off.

and I'm not the only one tat has been saying tat or feeling tat way.

Try telling her tat and u'll see wat u'll get in return..

I can't do anything abt it so i'll just let my frustrations off here.

and pretend everything's fine when I see her.

the cure to a broken heart

I still feel as though there's something missing in my lyfe

can't seem to figure out wateva it is..

wondering if there's a cure to it

frequent mood swings are the result to this..

wat do they call this anyway? disaster? catastrophe? hahaha..

kays...enuf of craps sarah..

the fact is..

every single day i try to not let my mood swings get the best out of me.

maybe tat's the reason why i'm feeling tis way.

I try to be the best for everyone around me but it's clear enuf tat i'm not being appreciated by some.

Is tis retribution?

I don't kno..but let's just hope for the best

@ MMLC =)

At MMLC with Nuriyyah and Cai Zhu rite now cos apparently I found out there's no SW lesson todae..
Precious time wasted..
='(
Gonna start on my project real soon
trying my best not to get distracted easily..
so tats all for now!
tata!

she

She has a choice but prefer a 'dont know, dont care' attitude, she has a future ahead of her and the present to care abt but prefers her past, she who can have possibly everything she wants but rather mourn over watever she lacks. she's the girl who is so full of herself and blocks herself from the real world. wake up lil girl. you can haf the whole world to urself if u reallie want to..

hurt~

i haf this huge hole in my heart..
i feel so hurt.but wat can i say..i've said enuf..i've let everything out..
i'm doing it for her own good
but why can't she just realise tat?
doesn't she kno why ppl are avoiding her?
i won't tell her cos as a frd, i respect her..
i just wanna let her kno how i feel but gosh when will she ever learn?
yes i kno, kwn bukan satu..
but i treasure every friendship but only those who deserve it..
and as far as im concerned, she's more than a frd..she's like a sister
but when will she ever gonna accept my opinion?
only god knows..
everyone haf been telling me tat i'm doing the rite thing
hope tat's true..
just hope i won't regret tis..

and this is how the plan goes~

not going to sch tomoro..
due to some reasons..(for me to kno and for u to find out obviously)
meeting dearest kak era and kak siti for lunch and
then off we go to causeway point..
so tats the plan for now..
lets see how things go tomoro..=)

hidden truth

cried myself to sleep for the past 2 nights..

dont know...

how much longer to pretend everythings okayy..

how much longer to keep everything to myself..

how much longer to hide all those tears..

how much longer to smile for the sake of others...

Trust

"The toughest thing about the power of trust is that it's very difficult to build and very easy to destroy."

This is exactly the reason why I trust myself much more than how much I  trust those around me. 

This may be hurtful but face the fact, the truth hurts, ppl.