yet another update

This is the worst thing he has done to me.

I have never cried this bad throughout our relationship.

I pray to God to give me the courage to start anew.

Tomorrow will be a brand new day, a new school term, a new life.

I will try not to look back.

I will learn from this. I know I will.

I'm strong. I won't let this bring me down.

Insyaallah.

still surviving.

I can't seem to forget about what happened earlier today no matter how hard I try.

I wanted to compromise. 

I gave him my trust.

But within a split second, I realized I made the wrong move.

All I could do was watch him ruin everything.

Can't he see that I'm trying to work things out between us?

What does messages from my family had anything to do with our rs?

What does wall posts from friends had anything to do with our rs?

I have no doubt at all that I'm not in the wrong. No doubt at all.

I need time to regain composure now.

This is too much for me.

:'(

heartbroken

No words can explain how I feel now.

I wanna scream my lungs out.

Why must this happen to me?

God knows my family means everything to me.

I've cried my heart out but nothing seems to make things better

I'm tired of crying. I seriously am.

My eyes swell, my throat hurts, my heart aches but it's nothing compared to the pain i'm feeling deep inside.
I need to talk to someone badly.

what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger

It's been a sad, sad week for me.

Whatever it is, i'm sure there's a reason things happen.

And i know, if me and boyfr can pull through tough situations like this, there's lesser things to be worried about in future.

I have no regrets being with boyfr so far.

We've been through all kinds of craps. We've quarelled over the most stupidest things, we complain about things that's not even worth our attention and we've seen the worst in both of us.

I don't know about him but one thing I know for sure, it only makes me appreciate him more.

Despite everything, I'm happy with how things are going between us. It takes a lot for me to leave him cos I know we have a strong relationship. Being in arguments is normal. Healthy in fact.

Wonder if he thinks the same way as I do.


Ps: October, please be good.